I want a new beginning..

..I read on Friday my horoscope..it went something like this:
"..time to concentrate on the three R's; Rest, Relaxation, and Renewal."

I thought..what the heck..why not just trust the horoscope for once..
..and I took a rest that day..
I didn't do any assignments..I didn't do any homework..attended lectures..but never copied a single word..I wanted to rest..from everything..
..and it did felt good..
just that all the resting made me felt a little blue..

on Saturday..I relaxed..I went back to Sg. Lui.."hui xiang" as we called it..
Didn't do anything back there..just relaxed myself..
and the more relaxed I am..the more depressed I felt..

On Sunday..I thought..now is the time for renewal..and then I thought again..
..heck..how do I renew myself?
I am just a shitty guy with nothing to start with who wishes to achieve everything..so..FUCK IT..

and I grew more depressed...

Now, I decided..
I am going to be the boy I always wanted to be..
I am going to be the man I always wanted to be..
I am going to be that someone..
that someone..

I am not going to be arrogant..
I am going back..
I want to find back my old me..
plus a little of a new me..

I changed my template..because..I hope that I could get a fresh start..
I want a fresh start..a new beginning..
FROM EVERYTHING..

FUCK EVERYTHING THAT HAS ROT IN MY LIFE FOR THE PAST!

let me now move on..and begin anew..

God, let me find the way..Amen.