Of Words

How many times have we said things without actually meaning it? Things spoken out of ... automated reply, obligation, and 应酬. Words spoken at the spur of the moment.

The words we say to another person, how much is it worth? The weight of those words, how heavy is it? The significance of it, will it make a difference if we said it differently? Do you mean those things you say?
For instance, when you tell your other half, "I love you", it's just a simple 3 words, but have you ever thought of the weight of those words? What does those 3 words actually mean to you, and to your other half? Is it just another 3 words you speak out like any other? Or does it hold some sort of significance to it? Do we actually mean it? If not, why are we spouting it?

Maybe it's just me .. that has been careless with what I say. Saying things without meaning it. And really, it's not just about saying things .. sometimes, it's about the actions too. Like .. laughing at a joke I don't find funny. Really? Oh yes. It is times like this I really hate myself for being such a fake. Then again, is "nothing but the whole truth" the better path? Total honesty .. is there such a thing? The type of lies we tell .. white lies .. lies by omission .. Maybe total honesty may not be such a good thing for relationship. But, it is really tiring to guess what the other person is really saying.

I am tired of guessing what people are actually thinking. Saying a thing but meaning another. Maybe that's why I am so skeptical of people in general. Oh no .. I don't hate people. I love people .. selectively. But in general? I am very much skeptical .. and people in general, have never failed to amaze me with the things they say and do.