Have you ever ...
Lay on your bed on a soundless night
Feeling restless
And hard to breathe
With all sorts of thoughts running through your head.
Thoughts like ...
What if I can't find a job after I graduate?
What if I took the first job offer I get and it sucks?
What if I missed the train to great fortune and fame?
What if she/he doesn't really loves me?
What if she/he is cheating on me?
What if I am poor in the next 5 years?
What if I can't earn enough to support myself?
What if I am washing dishes in my own bath tub 10 years from now?
What if I have children and they blame me that they are not well-fed?
What if my parents spend so much on me and yet I have nothing to give them back?
What if I am good-for-nothing?
What if I am laughed at?Scorned at?Despised on?
What if I don't have a future?
What if my future is bleak?And dark?
And all of a sudden, you are just gripped by worries.
And you start panicking.
About the future.
And what it may hold.
And for the whole night.
You are there.Staring into the emptiness of the night.
And when you close those eyes.You are staring at your thoughts.
And you start worrying even more.
To see yourself in those thoughts.
Have you ever ...
had a panic attack like that?
When you worries about your future
3 comments:
Dear, no matter what future brings you, things happen for reasons. Believe in yourself, and of course, in me, cause I won't leave you because you are not feeding me well.
Happiness is everywhere, not just in a bangolow or a 36 floors office. You just need to smile. :)
you obviously have too much time in hands, and too little confidence in the future.
life is good, uncertainties are incredible things, i love both them because uncertaintities in life just make everything we try worthwhile.
old saying 'what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.'
panic attack is normal. but dont get defeated. dont ever. never.
its no longer about 'if you cant beat them, join them'. its now 'if you cant beat them this way, think of another way, there will definitely a way to BEAT THEM and make them JOIN YOU'
i'm not sure if this makes sense to you. blame it on the toomany self-improvement books I read. but they are so damn good that i cant stop the knowledges and strategies from coming to my mind.
read them, get back the confidence, you and i know YOU CAN DO IT.
Fuck the panic attack! They bring you down, eliminate them totally from your life.
:)
See you soon bro! :)
reminds me of a childhood song:
Que sera sera.. whatever will be, will be.. the future's not ours to see.. que sera sera.. what will be, will be..
well.. come what may!
pls: long time no "see".. take care there!
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