Jealousy

You are still worldly. For since there is jealousy and quarreling among you, are you not worldly? Are you not acting like mere men?
- 1 Corinthians 3:3

Do not deceive yourselves. If anyone of you thinks he is wise by the standards of this age, he should become a "fool" so that he may become wise. For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God's sight. As it is written, "He catches the wise in their craftiness.", and again, "The Lord knows that the thoughts of the wise are futile. So then, no more boasting about man! All things are yours, ...
- 1 Corinthians 3:18-21

We are in this constant race to prove others that we are better than the rest.
We are locked in this race to always trying to elevate ourselves above the rest.

BUT, what's the point?
Sometimes, I think that it somehows make me sounds like a loser to say things like that.
Like what?
Like, " What's the point of always trying to prove you are better than the rest? No point at all. So, why are you always locked in this race?"

Sometimes, I feel like a loser to think like that.
Why do I feel like a loser?
Because, it seems to say that , " Well, you are weak, that's why you said that. To comfort yourselves from the pain of "defeat"."

AND well, the Bible explained it perfectly.
Because we are mere men.

Hmmmmm..I wonder when I can let go of this ego.
Of trying to prove that I'm better than the rest.
Really..What's the point?
That I am better than the others?

...then...what?

*sigh*

Tired of looking at the rat race.
Tired of being in the rat race.

I want to let go of my jealousy.
Of trying to elevate myself above others.


I am just..
..me..

=)