To my dearest Da Jie,

Hmmmmmm..I have just read your blog, and somehow, it breaks my heart reading the words you wrote..

I have never seek to share my sorrow with anyone
Neither have I really shared my deepest thoughts and feelings deep down inside
Cause I feel that people are so damn fake
I am scared that they will betray my deepest thoughts and feelings
Two years of Singapore has taught me independence
Though I hated it, it has moulded me to what I am today..

I hate what I am

I have never consoled someone directly
Neither have I really gathered up my courage to ask about someone when things happen
Cause I fear that people will think that I am fake
I am scared that they will think I am a hypocrite with a smiling face
I am afraid that they will think I am just trying to be a busybody
Trying to find out the latest juice..

SK told me once,
It is better not to know too much..
These words somehow always stung me..
At how much I was being left behind..
I know there are some things that I shouldn't ask
That I shouldn't be probing
That I shouldn't be bothering..

But somehow, it always make me feel left out
Left far behind by you guys
And you guys are the only bunch of guys that I really care
And I really just want to know

Out of concern

Nothing more.

I hope I am not being too conceited to assume that your second life is for me?
Please pardon me if I am wrong.
Because if it is, I would just like you to know..

Life is never serious about you,
BUT I AM
For this reason, would you take me seriously?
If you would..know this..
It breaks my heart..
Just looking at the sentence "it just shorten my life..which is what im so looking forward to"
There are so many things I look forward to in you.
Really.Seriously.I mean it.

I know you don't like people telling you what to do.
Preaching you.
Giving advise.

So I won't.


But my dearest da jie,






I WILL ALWAYS..





Love you




Be worried about you







If you would take me seriously,
Know that I really am worried about you, and I really do love you as a bro.