Everyone changes from time to time, question is; Do they change for better or worse?
If I change, and certain friends cannot accept my changes, and I lose precious friendship and gain other at the same time, is that change for the worse?
If I change, and I forgot my own principle, yet I enjoy success in what I do, is that change for the better?
How do you exactly define "better changes" or "worse changes"?
Sometimes, I wonder..have I change for the better?..or am I changing for the worse..from time to time, when I check back, it seems that I've lost my vision..my goals..of what I want to be..and I see how far I am from what I vision myself to be..
Just yesterday, I was talking with a friends on the topic of "innocence"..I was telling her that she has an innocent mind, and that's a good thing..
Why?
Because innocent people would not think of harming other people for their own cause..
yet here I am..in the middle of a war..fighting for my own cause, forgetting my principles..lost totally in this dirty world, trying to protect myself by harming others..
I am in THE "society"..
Sometimes, I wish I could be innocent too..and not think too much of this, just live my own life and be happy..yet..it seems like I'm trapped..excuses??
I came to understand that, at times, things really can't be helped..you are pushed on by circumstances, and moved on not on your will, but by the will of others..
I finally understand what it means to be in a "dog eat dog world"..though I know that my "world" is just a small one..a mini version of what I'll be facing the next 30 years..
but..I really wish to be free of those "evil" things..and not change myself for the "worse"..
because, sometimes, it's hard to find anyone to accept me as the way I am..and maybe that's because, I can't even acccept myself for the way I am..
2 comments:
In that case.. first step... accept and love yourself.. than you will learn easily to distinguish who are your really friends. Chung: we let people cross our lives. Some of them stay permanently, other just "disappear". That is not bad or good. That just happens. I believe that the most important is to remember how sweet and good was to be his/her friend. Hope you get ok after your long journey in this planet. Have fun :) :)
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Thanks..
but seriously, at times..I feel hurt that friends I really treasure drifts away as time goes on..hmmm..maybe they are on their way to leave "footprints" in the hearts of others..and yet..
I really do hate letting them go just like that..
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