Insanity Streaks - Redef!ned

Of It Has Been A While

2011-07-08T07:09:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since I last posted. For those who still drop by once in a while, and wondered if I am still alive, YES! I am :) Very much in fact.
But, it wasn't till a few days ago that I started feeling alive again.

There have been quite a number of things that have happened over the course of the past few weeks. Some good. Some bad. It has taken a while for me to sort through some of my thoughts and I think I will be writing some of it down .. some time soon.

For now, I am going to take a short break and start thinking more about my own thoughts.
As one wise silly girl told me before .. the introverts are busy people actually, with all the thoughts they have in their head.

Of 全世界失眠

2011-06-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

想起我不完美　你會不會
逃離我生命的範圍
想著你的滋味　我會不會
把這個枕頭　變得甜美

想起白天的約會　忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水　遠離我夢中的堡壘

一個人失眠　全世界失眠
無辜的街燈　守候明天
幸福的失眠　只是因為害怕閉上眼
如何想你想到六點　如何愛你愛到終點

想起我的時候　你會不會　好像我一樣不能睡
想像你的曖昧　我會不會　數不到綿羊　一雙一對

想起白天的約會　忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水　遠離我夢中的堡壘

一個人失眠　全世界失眠
無辜的街燈　守候明天
幸福的失眠　只是因為害怕閉上眼　如何想你想到六點

一個人失眠　全世界失眠
幸福的失眠　只是因為害怕閉上眼　如何想你想到六點
如何愛你愛到終點　如何愛你愛到終點

Of Laborious Doing

2011-06-02T12:52:00.000+08:00

In C.S. Lewis' "The Screwtape Letters", in part of the second letter, Screwtape wrote these ..

"Work hard then on the disappointment or anti-climax which is certainly coming to the patient during his first few weeks as a churchman. The Enemy allows this disappointment to occur on the threshold of every human endeavor. It occurs when the boy who has been enchanted in the nursery by Stories from the Odyssey buckles down to really learning Greek.
It occurs when lovers have got married and begin the real task of learning to live together. In every department of life it marks the transition from dreaming aspiration to laborious doing."

If you have read this book, you would know that "Screwtape" is one of the devil writing to "Wormwood", another devil and the "Enemy" here is God.

What I find fascinating here is the insight provided by C.S. Lewis .. the "transition from dreaming aspiration to laborious doing".
How many times have we talked about "Oh, I just love doing this/ Oh, I just love that"

Dreaming aspirations. When it's all talk.

When we talk about how much we like to do something .. for instance, I can say how passionate I am about investing, but if someone were to come and ask me about companies, about expected returns, about required returns, about dividend yields and what not, and I have not a single idea on how to reply or guesstimate a reply .. that's really just dreaming aspirations isn't it?

To think about how fascinating it is to be "doing something you love to do" but not doing
Fantasize about how wonderful it is to be "doing something you really want to do" but not doing
When it comes down to the real, hard, dirty work .. the truth is, we may not be willing to put in the time and effort.

The transition from dreaming aspirations to laborious doing.
Yet, C.S. Lewis also offers a glimmer of hope in the next sentences ..
"Desiring their freedom, He therefore refuses to carry the, by their mere affections and habits, to any of the goals which He sets before them: He leaves them to "do it on their own." And there lies our opportunity. But also, remember, there lies our danger. If once they get through this initial dryness successfully, they become much less dependent on emotion and therefore much harder to tempt"

When we become much less dependent on emotion, and therefore much harder to tempt.
:)
Once we get into the groove of doing all the real, hard, dirty work .. and loving every seconds of it .. we get pass the initial stage of crazy dreaming and passion, and to the stage of sustainable passion.
Where we burn not so much like a big burst of flame, but perhaps like an ember.
Glowing or smoldering. When flamed, will burst into flames. When tamed, will burn slowly and surely.
Sustained passion in laborious doing.

Hahaha .. I think to many it might sound kinda weird what I am writing here.
It's all right.
This is really much more of a personal reflection to myself than an outward reflection :)

Of New Source of Vanity

2011-05-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

Unveiling my new source of vanity;

The shiny, black case.

Wrapped up

Ta da!

Yup. That's my new source of vanity - a new pairs of specs.
It's more squarish and definitely bigger than my previous pair. Think I look a little bit more like Carl Fredricksen with these pairs though.

Of GASP! I Am An Uncle :(

2011-05-17T10:40:00.000+08:00

I went to the wet market for some grocery shopping yesterday.
Guess what happened?

The vege aunty said (in Chinese);
"Wah, haven't seen you in a long time!"

*sigh*
Have I become an uncle so much I am now a 熟客 of the vege aunty?
:(

I am an uncle.
Damn.

Of Blessings

2011-05-16T09:16:00.001+08:00

A brada just messaged me and said something that goes along the line;
"Hey xxx here. Watcha up to in Malaysia? Anyway at a church camp currently and somehow you kept coming in my mind. Just know that God is always there and if you need any prayer request, let me know. God bless and take care bro!"

1 Corinthians 13:13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

It's truly a blessing knowing that I not only have a brada who is looking out for me but also a brother in Christ who is praying for me.

Of Oldies

2011-05-09T22:41:00.001+08:00

I have been sharing songs the whole day, haven't I?
Well, it happens to be one of those days I guess :)

In any cases, some of you probably haven't heard of these songs .. but I grew up listening to their stuffs. Most of them at least.
At that point of time, they definitely were no way near the term "oldies". I mean, these are the songs parents ban from their home and which are blasted at full volume from the radio's of teens back then.

Well, at least for my family, I know my mum hated it and my brother kept blasting the radio.
Hahahaha .. as I aged though, I found a new appreciation for these songs.
I know someone is going to say I have weird taste in songs again, but I'll risk it :D
So why oldies? I remember a funny thing my brother told my parents .. he was hanging out with his friends when one of them commented .. "Can you believe that this shit we are listening to will be oldies in 10 to 20 years?"

As the Chinese says .. 岁月不饶人

Nirvana is definitely a huge influence in my taste for rock .. seeing as how Kurt Cobain has quite a huge presence in my home due my brother's idolization. Him and MJ were the top two source of annoyance for my mum. These are unplugged version which is very much mellowed down .. if you're in the mood of blasting some songs, you definitely may want to consider looking them up and one of their greatest hits - "Smells like teen spirits"

Guns N' Roses .. not a huge fan but they do have some really nice songs .. plus Axl with that hat and crazy hair? Peak of the fashion back then. November Rain was how I got to know them, and I was hooked when I heard the song. Like the song then, and still liking it.

Suede .. I only know one of their songs which I remember was being played CONSTANTLY back then when I was being drove around by my brother. The tapes era.

Lynyrd Skynyrd .. I only got to know them recently actually, but I really like this song of theirs. Thought the lyrics are meaningful and simple

Of You Are the One

2011-05-09T07:14:00.000+08:00

This simple song lifted up my mood this morning, and I hope it does the same for the rest of you!

(Then again, it could have been the coffee) :D

Of Wedding Dress

2011-05-09T06:38:00.000+08:00

If you could love me as a wife
And for my wedding gift, your life
Should that be all I ever need
Or is there more I'm looking for

Should I read between the lines
And look for blessings in disguise
To make me handsome, rich and wise
Is that really what you want

(Chorus)
Cause I am a whore and I do confess
I put you on just like a wedding dress
And I run down the aisle, run down the aisle

I am a prodigal with no way home
I put you on just like a ring of gold
And I run down the aisle, run down the aisle
To you

So could you love this bastard child
Though I don't trust you to provide
With one hand in a pot of gold
And with the other in your side

Cause I am so easily satisfied
By the call of lovers so less wild
That I would take a little cash over your very flesh and blood

(Chorus)

Cause money cannot buy
A husband's jealous eye
When you have knowingly deceived his wife

(Chorus)

For those who have noticed, this is a "love song" to God. No particular reason for sharing it, except that it reflects my thoughts time to time.
Even though the words are harsh in a sense to qualify as a "love song" .. I thought it actually reflects rather accurately the situations and thoughts I sometimes go through.

"So could you love this bastard child, Though I don't trust you to provide, With one hand in a pot of gold, And with the other in your side"

"To make me handsome, rich and wise, Is that really what you want?"

Jeremiah 2:32 Does a maiden forget her jewelry,
a bride her wedding ornaments?
Yet my people have forgotten me,
days without number

Of Wiring Problems

2011-05-08T14:33:00.000+08:00

I think there is a wiring problem in my head.
Like the other day at a restaurant, a Pakistani friend asked, "Hey A.C., what's nasi kerabu"
In my head, I am thinking “是一种蓝色的饭”
But when I opened my mouth to reply him, "It's a kind of brown rice"

You see what went wrong there?
I was thinking blue, but it came out as brown.
And it took me quite a few seconds to realize Blue <> Brown

Maybe it's an early symptom of 老人痴呆症

Of 20 Million and 10 Years

2011-04-23T13:06:00.000+08:00

If I inherited 20 million anonymously, I will use;
a. 1/3 of it to start off a "Ang Family Scholarship Fund". This will be a scholarship given to members of my family .. specifically the future generation of my family. Immediate or related.
b. 1/3 of it to start my business imbued with my philosophy with a final aim of teaching youth of the future my brand of philosophy in life and business. Essentially, the business will be a platform for me to reach out to the younger generation in meaningful ways.
c. 1/3 of it for FUN! Trips around the world. Gadgets. Hobbies. Pampering.

If I find out I only have 10 years to live .. hmmm .. I will spend them leaving a legacy with the 20 million above, and with my family and friends. Otherwise, honestly .. I am not sure what will I change in terms of my relationship with family and friends now. Perhaps I would like my family members to be more linked and united .. but I don't think there is a need to force that .. because as time goes on, and we grow up, I sincerely believe all of us siblings will be able to let go of past unhappiness and forge a future together. As for my parents, I think each of us love them in our own way.

Friends .. like I said in my previous post .. I am happy with the "10%" who have brought genuine blessings in my life. If possible, I would like to be a blessing to them too.

10 years of my life will be spent creating memories that can last me eternally.

Of List

2011-04-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

I realized that right now, I could delete 90% of the people on my Windows Messenger (MSN) list of "friends" and it probably wouldn't make a dent in my social circle.

Not sure whether it's a good thing but I sincerely think that regardless of the 90%, I'm really happy with the rest of the 10% who has in some way or other brought genuine blessings to my life.

Of Automaton

2011-04-06T11:53:00.000+08:00

A meaningful quote by Erich Fromm that has been challenging me for some time now, which I want to share and hope it challenges you too. Some of you may find it familiar :)

"Today we come across an individual who behaves like an automaton, who does not know or understand himself, and the only person that he knows is the person that he is supposed to be, whose meaningless chatter has replaced communicative speech, whose synthetic smile has replaced genuine laughter, and whose sense of dull despair has taken place of genuine pain. Two statements may be said concerning this individual. One is that he suffers from defects of spontaneity and individuality which may seem to be incurable. At the same time it may be said of him he does not differ essentially from the millions of the rest of us who walk upon this earth."

Of I Desire Mercy, Not Sacrifice

2011-04-03T22:30:00.001+08:00

Just thought of jotting down something quick that has made a deep impression on my mind the past two days. For those who didn't know, the title for this post is from a Bible verse .. Mathew 9:13 But go and learn what this means: 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice.' For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners

As I reflected on how I have committed sins and made mistakes, and my pleas for His mercy and compassion, I begin to have an inkling of the meaning on that verse.
Compassion and not judgment. Compassion for the lost, the harassed, and the hurt.
Matthew 7:1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

I am still very very far from being compassionate to people and it's still a long journey.
Regardless .. this is something that I have been taught in the last two days.

*Update*
I read this a C.S. Lewis book which I thought appropriate to be included in this self-reminder...
"I know all about the despair of overcoming chronic temptations. It is not serious, provided self-offended petulance, annoyance at breaking records, impatience etc. don't get the upper hand. No amount of falls will really undo us if we keep on picking ourselves up each time. We shall of course be very muddy and tattered children by the time we reach home, but the bathrooms are all ready, the towels put out, and the clean clothes in the airing cupboard. The only fatal thing is to lose one's temper and give it up. It is when we notice the dirt that God is most present in us; it is the very sign of His presence."

*As for the 20 million and 10 years question I asked you, I'll write what I'm going to do soon. Updates later

Of What If ..

2011-03-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

What if one day, you woke up and were told of two news ..
The first news: You have inherited $20 million from a far-away relative.
The second news: You only have 10 more years to live.

What would you do?
Or specifically, what would you do .. differently? Different from what you have been doing for the past 20 years or so.

Or you wouldn't have done anything different?

Seriously, what would you do?

Of Lion King

2011-03-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

Ami, you were right.
I do love Lion King. I love how they used colors to paint the emotion of each scene. The way they sing is very different too .. the deep rich vocal to bring out the feeling of the show was very different from Wicked. I have to say though, Wicked's singing was far far far better.

Still, it's awesome.
Let's do this when you head over :D .. if you haven't already catch it in Des Moines.

Of Mika

2011-03-19T19:36:00.000+08:00

Was first introduced to Mika by Silly Gal who shared with me this song. I like the bittersweet melody of the song and the lyrics are beautiful too. (For this video, you can skip straight to 1:52 after it loads as the first part of it is just introduction of his musicians during the concert)

If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

Grace Kelly is another song from him that I like a lot. I'm not entirely sure what was his original inspiration, but my take from this song was about finding your own identity.

Why don't you like me why don't you like me without making me try?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly
But her looks were too sad
So I tried a little Freddy
I've gone identity mad

Why the sudden infatuation with Mika? Nothing much, I just popped in a DVD of his Parc de Princes concert yesterday and thought it was fantastic. The energy and the color of the concert was superb. Hence the desire to share some of his songs.

Of Thanks

2011-03-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

I'm thankful for bacon. Mmm .. crispy crispy bacon with its fat. Yum yum.
I'm thankful for iPhone. Browse and read while I'm on the train or in the toilet? Absolutely a good thing to kill time.
I'm thankful for Lion King. Now, I don't have to fly all the way to U.S. to watch a musical!
I'm thankful for my housemates. They leave me alone most of the time, which I really appreciate and yet is social enough to talk to me so I don't get disconnected or too aloof. Awesomely gracious.
I'm thankful for my God. My God who loves me. Judge me. And hold me up to His standard. Most of all, my God who never lets me go and always give me a choice.
I'm thankful for books.Smells great. Good to hold. Nice to flip. Perfect for a rainy day.
I'm thankful for office IM. Need I say more?
I'm thankful for ironed-crisp shirt. I love how the collar is stiff and pointy. I love how it creases as I tuck my shirt in.
I'm thankful for marble. Ergh .. I hate tiles (certain tiles)
I'm thankful for my legs! They're hairy, but they bring me places and allow me to run!
I'm thankful for the rain. Just enough to make it nice to sleep at night. Stop at the right time for me to get back home.
I'm thankful for you. You who I meet in different phases of my life. Stumbled in and out. But sticking near most of the time. I'm thankful for who you are and what we did. Thank you!

Researches have shown that when you're thankful for things .. it puts you in a better mood.
I'm not sure how true is that .. but it is fun to think about things I'm thankful for :D

What are you thankful for?

Of Solitude vs Loneliness

2011-03-08T09:31:00.000+08:00

What can I say but Amen!

http://www.boston.com/bostonglobe/ideas/articles/2011/03/06/the_power_of_lonely/

Now, question is are you feeling the pain of loneliness? Or the glory of solitude?

If you're the former..please find someone to talk to! Even me, lame as I can be. I promise I'll suppress my lameness ok?

Otherwise..enjoy your solitude knowing you're not weird..at all:)

Of Corporate World Ain't A Total Bitch After All

2011-03-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

Was called into a meeting to review some process earlier today. Point of the meeting is not important.
What is important is that at one point, when my efficiency was called into question, the person whom I have been working closely with jumped to my defense.

Honestly?
I am pretty touched by his gesture and defense.
In a sense, I am glad I didn't give way to the hard-cold reality of the corporate world. Something like that would make me think upholding my integrity and ideal is still worth it, despite facing the possibility of being ridiculed and being called naive.

So be it. Naive I shall be. And ridicule I will receive.
Corporate world ain't a total bitch after all.

Of Rocket Science with People

2011-02-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

Now I think I finally get it by what it means it's hard to get everyone together when they start working. Just to get a dinner date with everyone by trying to match each and every single person's availability is almost like solving a rocket science equation.

And unfortunately for everyone, I am not a rocket scientist.
Ha!

Of Family

2011-02-27T15:34:00.000+08:00

Even if family members are willing to sacrifice more than what an average people would, that still doesn't mean you should take advantage of it.
And yes, there will always be a limit to how far I can take it.

Of Blank

2011-02-26T22:40:00.002+08:00

Haven't had any observations lately of things in general. I did write up something on how etiquette is about self-realization, but I think that was lost in transmission. Wrote it in my iPhone while sitting in the train one morning and sent it over mail, but never saw that piece pop up anywhere in my blog. Oh well, guess it's gone and I'll take it as a sign that it is not something you people should read bout.

Anyway, I am a little tired these days .. I think I deliberate too much on things sometimes and take too little actions. Which cause me to have some frustrations at times and confusions at others. Really should stop with all those thinking sometimes.

One last thought .. while showering, I remember some quote some people wrote about how if there is a million step between him and another person, and the other person is willing to take the first step out, he is willing to walk the rest of the 999,999 steps (Did I do the math right?). Well, the thing is that .. you see, this is really a game of cat and mouse isn't it? Why would you expect the first person to take the first step out if you're not willing to take a gamble and take the first step yourself? Plus .. really .. if you were to take the first 999,999 steps, and that other person still refuses to take the last remaining step out, gee .. that would be ... I don't know .. awkward? Or maybe just tiring. Right.Me and my babbling. *zip*

Of 儿歌

2011-02-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

This is one of those songs that helps me relax in times when I am a little wound up.

如果受了傷，就喊一聲痛
真的，說出來就不會太難過

生活　生活
會快樂也會寂寞
生活　生活
明天我們好好地過

I hope it does the same for you too.

Of Darwin

2011-02-25T07:28:00.000+08:00

有过竞争有过牺牲
被爱筛选过程
学会认真学会忠诚
适者才能生存
懂得永恒得要我们
进化成更好的人

Of 听与�

2011-02-21T11:34:00.000+08:00

前阵子在一个算是Orientation的时候学了个人觉得很有趣也很有意义的事。

繁体字的listen 是��的；＂�＂而简体字的listen却是这样；＂听＂
虽然意思一样但意义不一样。

繁�的�是用耳去聆�，心去感受，眼去�察。这样才算是十足的在��方所�的�。简体呢？

简体也是我们所谓的现代写法，把听写成用口反驳，然后斤斤计较每个字。
你不觉得华文很奥妙吗？

We used to listen with ears,empathize with conscience and observe the body language with eyes. At least the older generation hope that people do these while "listening". The modern man today talk more than they are hearing and weigh every words of the other party; judging them while they are still speaking. The words (in Chinese) may be defined the same .. But the meaning behind it .. Has a huge difference?

Which one am I? Which one are you?

Of 一个人

2011-02-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

习惯一个人是因为喜欢独自行动，享受一个人的自由..还是因为害怕孤单所以近快适应？当没办法分那两者时..是否有点危险呢？

因为不知不觉中已经慢慢习惯了但内心在呐喊着希望有人能�到。
你是否已开始迷惑？若是那就找一个你能信任的人，然后把心中想喊出来的都对他说吧。

独自一人，有时是中幸福，但有时是中寂寞。你是哪一者？

Of First Day of My Life

2011-02-20T20:25:00.001+08:00

I have always love this song .. for its simplicity and the "innocence" of it.

And you said "This is the first day of my life"
I'm glad I didn't die before I met you
But now I don't care, I could go anywhere with you
And I'd probably be happy

Of Words

2011-02-20T19:41:00.000+08:00

How many times have we said things without actually meaning it? Things spoken out of ... automated reply, obligation, and 应酬. Words spoken at the spur of the moment.

The words we say to another person, how much is it worth? The weight of those words, how heavy is it? The significance of it, will it make a difference if we said it differently? Do you mean those things you say?
For instance, when you tell your other half, "I love you", it's just a simple 3 words, but have you ever thought of the weight of those words? What does those 3 words actually mean to you, and to your other half? Is it just another 3 words you speak out like any other? Or does it hold some sort of significance to it? Do we actually mean it? If not, why are we spouting it?

Maybe it's just me .. that has been careless with what I say. Saying things without meaning it. And really, it's not just about saying things .. sometimes, it's about the actions too. Like .. laughing at a joke I don't find funny. Really? Oh yes. It is times like this I really hate myself for being such a fake. Then again, is "nothing but the whole truth" the better path? Total honesty .. is there such a thing? The type of lies we tell .. white lies .. lies by omission .. Maybe total honesty may not be such a good thing for relationship. But, it is really tiring to guess what the other person is really saying.

I am tired of guessing what people are actually thinking. Saying a thing but meaning another. Maybe that's why I am so skeptical of people in general. Oh no .. I don't hate people. I love people .. selectively. But in general? I am very much skeptical .. and people in general, have never failed to amaze me with the things they say and do.

Of Stop

2011-02-19T09:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, taking a breather might be the best thing you can do. Instead of rushing headlong into stuffs, running and sprinting non-stop .. a break might help in getting a better picture of what you are doing.

给自己一点空间 .. 一点时间
看清楚了，知道方向了..再用力的奔.
这样, 才能确保想抵达的重点是想要去的地方.

Of Smell of New Shirts

2011-02-12T09:39:00.001+08:00

Is it just me or do you guys love the smell of a new shirt too?
I just got two new shirts from Charles Tyrwhitt. A friend brought it back from UK. I know .. all the way right?

Mmm .. the smell is great. Unfortunately, it's going to have my "manly" smell soon ..

Of Boston

2011-01-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

Have I shared with you the song "Boston" by Augustana? I will bet with you I have.
But what the heck, here goes it anyway ..

It's one of my favorite songs to repeat when I am feeling kind of in the middle of nowhere.
The lyrics somehow strikes a chord with some of my thoughts and feelings at those point ..

"You don't know me, you don't even care ..
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains ..

...

She said I think I'll go to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather

I think I'll get a lover, and fly them out to Spain
I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I am just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice
Boston, where no one knows my name"

Oh, in case you're just wondering, no .. I'm not emo now or anything. It just so happens that the song was played on my player one day, and I have pretty much kept it on repeat since. Somehow it soothes me as I chug through those textbooks.

It brings back some of those memories when I was struggling to identify myself and to find a place where I could be happy. And knowing now that I can indeed be happy and be me .. it cheers me up a little.

Hmmm .. you probably have songs, that when played .. brings down a flood of memories you just can't wash away .. and so you sit there quietly listening to the song and thinking about the past. Sometimes it may be unpleasant memories .. but sometimes .. it's just some personal memories that only you know about. Those feelings you had. And the thoughts that accompanied ..

Boston is one of those songs that brings back those memories to me.

Of A to B

2011-01-14T22:04:00.004+08:00

When we were small and full of life, we ran, we sprinted and we bounded towards our dreams. We were careless, and we were carefree. Even when we fell, we picked ourselves up, and once again, ran, sprinted and bounded joyously towards life. Nothing was out of reach. We were trying to grab hold of life, understand the meaning of it, fall in love and be intoxicated by the beauty of this world. We were indomitable. We were reckless and brash. We had wings. The wings of youth to carry us over to where we want to be.

And now that we are grown up, we move slower. No longer running, sprinting and bounding. As we move each day, we die another day. We still think there is a possibility of reaching our dreams. But hampered by reality, having to balance responsibility and passion, we slowly forget the big picture of our life and became myopic in our daily lives. Our tunnel vision is on the troubles we have to face daily. We accept that life is just this. Life. We try to "live". But unknowingly, we are closer to dying. And the reality is we are no longer growing and living, but dying and decaying with each passing day. We move closer and closer to our grave each day. We may be breathing, but the reality is we are closer really .. to dying. Our soul withers and slowly but surely, the weight of our so called "responsibilities" tilt the scale and our passion no longer holds its weight in our life.

But is this really the reality? You may think I am too young to say this. You may think I am an idealist. But no matter, I refuse to accept this is reality.

My wings may no longer be youthful. Ruffled and stiff, they may no longer help me soar and fly. But I will glide. I will crawl. Not to my grave. But to eternal life. I will burn and be a beacon. Not a spark. Not a flash. I will burn with brilliance with whatever that I have. I refuse to accept that life is just this. I refuse to be myopic. I will live. Passionately. And if I die, I will want to do so gloriously. I will seek the balance of not taking life too seriously, and yet, not be careless with it. I will find the balance point of knowing when to pour out the secrets of my heart, and when to steel my resolve, grit my teeth and fight on the good fight.

From point A to point B. I will try my hardest to make sure the end is not the mean. My life from birth to death, I will try my darnest best to make sure it will be filled up meaningfully. And I will be praying each day, that on this journey, I will have your companionship. To do this together. For you who reads, if you ever take up the challenge to fight your so called fate, and to decide that you shall be the captain of your life with no others but God to give you the direction, and you shall steer through storms and blizzards, I will be willing to be your second-in-command whenever you raise an alarm for me. For I know I will not be able to brave through storms, nor do I have the finesse and skills to weather through blizzards. And I know you will be there for me. And so shall I be for you.

Fight the good fight. A to B.

Of Baby Tooth

2011-01-04T14:37:00.000+08:00

Met a dentist through Gerardine some time ago when we went rock climbing and I asked her whether she knows of any good dentist around.
Recommended her junior..and I went to see her today. Not so much as a patient, but more of "case study" material.

In short, a guinea pig.

My case?Bleeding gums.Well,not sure whether it's a good news, but I have been accepted as her case study.

Anyway, she took X-ray of my teeth and showed me that I have;
a. 2 pairs of missing teeth on my upper jaw
b. A baby tooth!

Pretty surprising to me. Learnt that baby tooth don't have roots and mine may or may not fall out.hah.
I also have slight bone loss..but other than that I was told I have a clean teeth!

Yay! Clean teeth! That's something I've been immensely proud of. Hahah. Because in spite of my sweet tooth habit, I manage to keep them plaque free:)

Of A Brand New Year

2010-12-31T23:47:00.001+08:00

2010 has been a year of many things for me. Some of you probably already know the things that I have went through. But by far, the single and most important thing that has happened this year for me would be the fact that I moved my career to Singapore. I can't help but recall the poem "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost;

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could,
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence;
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I think the phrases ..
"Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way" ... represents my thoughts and feelings perfectly.
I kept the first for another day, yet knowing .. how way leads on to way.
Indeed .. my road to Singapore has lead me on through peaks and valleys. It has led me from one thing to another ... and indeed .. I doubted if I should ever come back ...

"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence"
I sincerely hope that I won't be telling this with a sigh .. somewhere ages and ages hence :)

In any case, this is not a post of reflections. Too much reflections to post. Yea .. my head is getting slightly bigger (and nope, not having problem wearing my tees yet).

As I have told one Silly Gal .. " ..wishing you a year of many joys, laughter and smiles" .. and now ..
I wish the same thing to all of you who drop by and take a peek at my blog time to time ..
A year of many joys, laughter and smiles. For I know .. when there is smile and laughter, there shall be relief from the burden of this world. And when you find it hard to even think of a reason to smile, look me up.
I can't promise I can crack you up .. but I know for you who read .. I am willing to be the clown (Fortunately for me, there aren't many of you who read :D)

So cheers, and may 2011 be a year of joy, laughter and smile.

你知道当你需要个夏天
我会拼了命努力,
我知道你会做我的掩护
当我是个逃兵
- 苏打绿 .. 无与伦比的美丽

Of Unpredictability

2010-12-27T10:18:00.008+08:00

I was cleaning up my room when I saw this. Couldn't help but kept laughing to myself.
Life is full of flukes. You really won't know what it'll throw into your lap.
Peserta terbaik?!
Hah.

Honestly? I'm a little embarrassed. And it was for physics..
Seriously..life has a weeeeeird sense of humor.

For those of you who don't know .. I pretty much suck at Physics and Chemistry. And .. ironically, I was selected to represent in Physics.

Of Consumers

2010-12-22T00:12:00.001+08:00

Ever wonder about the word "consumers"?
A little dig led me to these;
Duck Echo mentions that "consumer" originates from the Latin word consumo.
Latin Word List says that the latin word consumo has many meanings, some of which means waste away, destroy.

If you look up Dictionary.com .. the word consume will lead you to the definition of .. to spend wastefully, exhaust, deplete, waste, squander and the origin of the word comes from "consumere" which means to use up, eat, waste.

Now, ever wonder why we are tagged as "Consumers" these days?
Ever thought about the things we bought? The things that are piling up at home? The things that we are collecting and are now collecting dust for us?
Just a little thought as spring cleaning creeps nearer.

Cheers.

Of Freestyle

2010-12-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

Can't stop laughing listening to this song.
Think his songs is an acquired taste.

Of Modern Maladies (Again)

2010-12-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

This was something I thought about quite some time ago but I think Devin Coldewey expresses it in the most perfect way that I can't think of any better way to write it. So here goes ...

http://techcrunch.com/2010/12/14/the-dangers-of-externalizing-knowledge/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+Techcrunch+%28TechCrunch%29

Read it if you have the time. I think it's interesting and worth a moment of thought.

Of Deeds

2010-12-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

Just a quick jot down for myself before I go to bed and the thought runs away.
Note to self: Remember what others have done for you. Always. But you can be careless and forgetful of what you have done for others. Always.

Of 02:56:06

2010-12-12T20:36:00.001+08:00

This is what I got running for 2 hours 56 minutes and 6 seconds.

That and the knowledge of how smug I can be at times. Confidence is good. But not when it's spilling all over the place. I thought I would be fine with two legs and one heart. Not really. I am lucky I didn't get carried off the race in a medic van.

Still, finishing the half-marathon was a surreal experience. Even now.

Of Thoughtless

2010-12-11T20:42:00.000+08:00

Not much thought these days ..
Most of it are nonsense that are here there everywhere middle of nowhere.
A lot of pent up frustration at times. And too much of energy at others.

A friend's father just passed away recently. Pretty shocking.
He was here for treatment two weeks ago.
Was coming again on Monday. But on Friday morning, he passed away.

Life ..

Of Mix Bags of Messages

2010-12-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

Would you take someone who is named "Bunny" seriously?
Seriously?
I mean, how? Please, do tell me. How do you take someone named "Bunny" seriously and professionally.
Call me shallow. Call me judgmental. I just can't. All right .. I actually can. But it takes a lot of effort.
Come on, if I call myself Strawberry, you can take me seriously?
Seriously?

There are two type of taxi drivers in Singapore.
One that engage you in conversation .. which by the way, will mainly center around the politics of Singapore.
And one that totally ignores you.

Half-marathon needs serious preparation. Energy gel. Hydration. Sunblock. Everything needs to be taken into account. Which sadly, I did not. It was a torturous 21km with the second-half fully dominated by the thought "I am H.U.N.G.R.Y."
100 Plus saved my life.

It is really interesting to hear the ladies in the office talk about life. Like .. do you know people actually spend SGD 5K on 3 kids' tuition, music, etc etc classes?
5K!
And then .. there are kids today who are so .. "fortunate" .. that when the teacher gave an assignment of writing an essay titled "My experience taking a bus", the kids actually reply "But ... I have never taken a bus..." What kind of world are we living in today ...
Still .. very very interesting. Yeah. Call me ba gua.

Of A Lazy Sunday Afternoon

2010-12-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

Wanted to share this song since a while back .. Silly gal introduced it and I have kept in on "Repeat" on my player. Even my iPhone.

I have no idea what they are singing. But I love the relaxy feel. The guitar. The short rap. Very soothing song.

Of I Am A Cold Blooded Ass

2010-12-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

The conversation below was reconstructed from my flimsy memory .. but then again, who really gives a hoot on its accuracy;

"Hey, are you going back on 10th?"
"I guess I am. What's up?"
"{keep it a secret} xxx is proposing to yyy and he wants us to be there"
"Hahaha.I don't see the point so I will give it a pass. Thanks for asking though"
" The point .. of being there?"
"Yeah."

And then we talked about it again this afternoon, and I said ..
"See .. I really don't see the point of being there. First, I don't know him that well. Second, really .. what's the purpose of me being there? If someone is proposing to you, then I will make sure I am there."

Am I too cold-blooded?
People say I am too logical. Sometimes I think I may be a tad too logical for my own good.
Then again, perhaps it's just me .. and my principles.

My principles which are turning me cold-blooded.

Of A Revisit To An Old Poem

2010-12-01T07:38:00.000+08:00

Stumbled across the poem If by Rudyard Kipling while I was browsing. Took time out to read it and ponder upon his words. Here is the poem;

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

Lately, I have been putting in more time to think about Life. Everything about life. Wealth, career, family, friends, people, God, death, sickness, improvement, pleasure and the list goes on ..

I know .. some of you there are laughing .. "A.C. is turning old" =)

Well, I think I am. During my conversation with SK, she asked, "Do you think of yourself as old?"

I replied something like this;

Yes .. I think I am getting old. Not in the sense of jaded, fatigue-old. But .. I sincerely feel that time is running out for me. When I was 21, I had so much ambitions. So full of ideals. When I was 23 or 24, I thought I can finally live out my ideals and take a concrete step towards my ambitions. Start doing things my way. Now that I am 26, I realize .. I have not done a lot of the things I want to do, and there are still a lot more things I want to do! I feel old, because I think that time is slipping by too fast for me to achieve everything I want to. So yes, I feel old.

I believe in living passionately. I believe that work can be fun. I believe that work is not only for sustaining ourselves. It is also part of our legacy. What we leave behind for the future.

I believe that the world can be a better place not by first, having the people change themselves. I believe that the world can be a better place by first, changing myself. I believe in treating people sincerely. I believe in loving people selflessly. I believe in making things right. I believe in integrity. I believe success does not have to be ruthless.

I believe in my God. I believe that wealth can make life better. But I also believe that it is not the end of the process. I believe money is a tool, not a master. I believe I can make a difference.

So, what am I doing?

What are you doing Chung Chin?

Of What?! This Is Too Cool!

2010-11-30T06:55:00.000+08:00

You have to try this!
1. Go to Google Translate
2. Set the translator to translate German to German
3. Copy and paste this into the translate box;
pv zk pv pv zk pv zk kz zk pv pv pv zk pv zk zk pzk pzk pvzkpkzvpvzk kkkkkk bsch
4. Click "Listen"
5. Be Amazed!

Amazing isn't it?!
Hahaha. I thought it was pretty funny.
Found out about this from here. So, thanks Peter Kirn!

In case you don't know what the heck you're listening to, that's Google beatboxing yo.

Of Good Weekend Make Up for a Pissy Week

2010-11-28T17:45:00.001+08:00

Good weekend make up for pissy week. Yup. That's right. Genesis 2:2By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work.

Technically, I rested on Saturday.

Had a good talk with SK on life and our ideal. The gap between our philosophies and realities, and how are we working towards closing the gap. Too much deep stuffs to be written here. Maybe I will come back to those thoughts and post it up some day.

Attended Silly Gal's orchestra concert. An absolute delight. SK was touched at the purpose of the concert, which was to provide a platform of inspiration to the jaded working-class to once again pick up their instrument and find back the passion they had for music. It inspired her to take up an instrument too .. and she asked, "Doesn't it make you want to play piano again?" I just laughed at the question and said "I will stick to enjoying the performance of others"

Some interesting thoughts I had during the concert .. for the first part of it, I was very consciously trying to be present at the concert and had to catch myself a few times when my mind wandered elsewhere. It was kind of a task .. I mean, if you think about it, what do you mean by "enjoying" the music. I still can't really understand the notion .. but towards the middle part, there was this particular performance by 4 person.I forgot the piece they played, but the way they smiled at each other and seemingly enjoyed playing that piece will be hard to forget.
It was at that point that my mind was more settled at the concert and I was much more present at the concert. As I said, absolute delight.

Silly gal, you gotta keep performing ok?

Watched Detective Dee, one of the more recent movie by Andy Lau. Kind of disappointed. I have always been a fan of detective films and novels. (Sherlock Holmes!) I appreciate the novelty put into the film, and the characters are rather interesting, but CG ruined a big part of the fun. Overall, wouldn't recommend it except for a lazy Saturday night.

Picked up Fragile Things by Neil Gaiman again after it had been left collecting dust for so long. I lost interest in fictions since .. I don't know .. after Drake? But it was a refreshing break from all those books I have been reading these days.
But I still really can't stand fiction .. it somehow bores me now.
Probably not till I find something that really gets me turning the pages will I finish a fiction in a day or two anymore.

That's about the stuffs I have done. Not much, but that's really the point, isn't it?
Have you had a good weekend to make up for a pissy week?

Of NINJA Generation

2010-11-27T12:06:00.000+08:00

I saw this quote somewhere while browsing;
" ...You are the NINJA Generation.
No Income.
No Job.
No Assets."

Actually, it should be NINJNA. But NINJA is more catchy.Whatever.

Apparently it's from Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps. Anyone watched the movie yet?
Funny.But sadly true.
Ninja Generation.

Can we be more screwed?
Yes, we can. Following Obama's spirit.
But since I am in Msia, "Ya,Boleh".

Of Fighting The Monster

2010-11-25T14:12:00.001+08:00

"Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."

-Friedrich Nietzsche

Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster.

I think I may have gained a little understanding on what Nietzsche was saying ..

These days, I am battling with so many monsters, I am in danger of becoming one ..

On the train this morning .. feeling erratic and pissed at the lack of sleep, the fucked up work and everything else .. it was easy to think about being snappy and mean to people who are mean and snappy to me.

Until it dawned on me .. "Then, what's the difference between them and me?"

Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster.

I need to get out of this shit hole.

Of Modern Maladies

2010-11-17T22:41:00.005+08:00

Does this sound familiar to you?
"Anything."
"I go if you go."
"Whatever also can."

Maybe it's just me, but I seem to notice that one major problem with the people these days is indecisiveness. You ask them where they want to eat, they tell you "Anything.". You ask them what they want to drink, they tell you "What also can.". You ask them whether they want to pee, they tell you "You go I go."

Ok ... maybe not so much for the pee-ing.
But problem is, when they say "Anything." .. they don't actually mean "ANYTHING".. because when you do decide something for them, then they will start being picky (No pork.Only chicken. Or .. That place stinks, this place is crowded.)

Is our indecisiveness to decide caused by us being bombarded by so much information that it renders us incapable of making simple decisions e.g. where to go to have fun, where and what to eat, what to watch for tonight's movie and whether to buy that pair of shoes?
Or is this a problem of the modern man? That we have began to shift responsibilities to others, even personal responsibilities such as pee-ing ("You go I go") .. to other people.

I personally am biased towards the second one. People are just shirking responsibilities, hoping someone will take them up and lead them right to the urinal.Ok.Not so much bout the pee-ing. But seriously? We might have grown too comfortable for others to take charge because we are afraid of the consequences of being responsible for things.

Next time someone ask you "What time should we meet up?" .. try to think for a little bit and not reply "Anytime" straight off ...
Personal responsibility people. Personal responsibility.
Make your choice.Decide.
Even if that means it inconvenient certain people. Just because you can't always satisfy the mass doesn't mean you have to join them.

*By the way, I use "he" and "man" in my posts. If you are particular about it, Guy Kawasaki said it best;
"If only defeating sexism were as simple as throwing in an occasional he/she, she, her, or hers. I use the masculine pronouns merely as shortcut. Successful entrepreneurship is blind to gender. Don't look for sexism where none exists".
So "man" doesn't only applies to man.

Of Lost And Found

2010-11-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

You know those lost and found boxes?
Ever look into those boxes? They have all kind of knickknacks in there.Keys.Gums.Right side of a shoe.Matches.Little messed up pieces of post-it-notes.
All kinds.

Sometimes, I wonder if Life have a "Lost and Found" box of its own.
You lost something, you go to that box .. look into it, and see if it is there.For example, you might have lost a friend from years ago .. you look into the "Lost and Found" box, and ta da! ... there he is.Or she.Or he/she.

But I guess ... not really huh? Maybe .. that's how Life tells us to treasure what we have.Because, we never know when we will lose it .. and when we lose it .. whether we will be able to find it back again.
Because when something is lost .. something .. can just never be found again.
So, maybe it's good that there is no "Lost and Found" box for Life.

Still .. I can't help but wonder about the things I have lost and whether it can be found again.

Of Snow White

2010-11-17T18:41:00.000+08:00

On the train today, I gave my seat to a lady whose hair was white as snow. She smiled brightly at me and purposely walk to my front and said "Thank You".

At her stop, she stood up and again, with that radiant smile, she said "Bye bye".

Even though it was right for me to gave the seat, she did not take it for granted and paid me not once but twice..with that radiant smile of hers. A perfect end to a gloomy rainy day.

Thank you Ms. Snow White.

Of I Love The Japanese People

2010-11-12T23:18:00.002+08:00

What else can I say.This is the land that gave us Japan Adult Video ... I mean ... Manga.Anime.Takashi Kaneshiro and more ..

Now .. they are giving us .. Tourism Bra?

Seriously.I love Japan.

Of Reality Check

2010-11-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

Guy Kawasaki, in Reality Check {The Irreverent Guide to Outsmarting, Outmanaging, and Outmarketing Your Competition};
Success takes crazy, passionate people who believe they can change the world. Success doesn't take "professional" and "proven" people.

And nope, Guy doesn't sell motorcycles.
I know. What a name right?
I wish my name is that cool.Hmmm ...yeah, maybe instead of A.C., I should have people call me Mitsubishi next time.

Cheers to all you crazy, passionate people out there who believe you can change the world.

Of Rebuilding

2010-11-10T22:25:00.003+08:00

It is time to rebuild. From ground up. From scratch. From zero.
As Eminem puts it ... "Back to the lab again yo"

Time to revisit the past.Set the records straight.Rebuild.Move on.
So many things to do.So little time.
So many thoughts to pen down.So little energy.
Bear with my nonsense a little bit more.I think I am nearing the other side of that metaphorical tunnel.

Of Mirror Mirror On The Elevator Door

2010-11-10T08:41:00.000+08:00

I noticed that people actually spend time grooming their hair using our shiny elevator door.
Yup.
In front of everyone in the elevator.

Funniest thing?
No matter how much they sapu that hair..it always drop back to that same style.
Yet from the 1st floor till the 14th. Non-stop hand combing.

Fine..I admit it. I do that too..but not in an elevator full of people!

Ahhhh...the limit of our vanity.15th floor.That's my limit.

Of Smiley Yellowey

2010-10-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

I think sunflower has that special attributes that brightens up the space around it.

Somehow it just makes you feel smiley yellowey.

Of This Is A Mad Mad World

2010-10-29T11:08:00.000+08:00

It is crazy stuffs like this that makes newspaper fun to read.

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052702303341904575576192201885522.html

Of Homecoming

2010-10-28T12:08:00.001+08:00

Counting down to tomorrow 11:35p.m.
Hope you can still recognize me. I'll be holding a sunflower just in case.

Of Drafts And Some Other Stuffs

2010-10-27T22:41:00.003+08:00

I realized I had a few draft posts lying around and went ahead and posted them.
Been some time since I have written anything ..
I think I will be visiting here more often now.
Will definitely work around my schedule.
All it takes is a little discipline.

I will also be starting a few projects on my own.
Some DIY projects. Something that I feel will be interesting and will give me lots to learn and think about .. Will be putting up more updates soon.

Of One Life

2010-10-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered how your life would have turned out if you have traveled on a different path in this journey called Life?
Like ...
What if I have studied photography instead of boring accounting?
What if I have choose not to reject his/her love?
What if I haven't been that grumpy in that interview?

All these what ifs.

As one Ami puts it ... It is one of those things that no matter how much you dwell on it, it ain't gonna change. But it is one of those things that keep popping into our head from time to time.

Of course, there are things you wonder but you could never change ... like ...
What if you were born to Bill Gates?

Those are more of fantasies rather than wondering.
Wondering are things ... that technically speaking, you could have been in control of.
Something that you could have made a choice of ... and somehow, you have made it differently.
Would it have been better if you have taken the other road?
You look at others .. and you think about their life. You wonder whether you would be living that kind of life, if you have made your choice differently.

Sometimes I wonder ...
But in the end, it is still a wondering.

Because in the end ...I am here.Now.
I graduated with a Finance/Accounting and Actuarial Science degree.Not the most exciting job ever ... compared to James Bond or Jason Bourne.Actually .. scratch Jason Bourne.He doesn't have a job.
I am the person who at 16 years old ... didn't know I would turn out to be right here ... right now.
But at this moment, I also know that .. in 10 years more time, I won't know where I would turn out to be.

There is only one life to live. One.
Live it.

改变

2010-10-27T06:39:00.000+08:00

15岁那年的我，有两个女孩同时向我告白.

刚接触爱情的我以为自己爱的是一个，不爱另一个.

接受了一个告白.拒绝了一个告白.

但因为家人搬回古来，这一段"puppy love"

还没起步

就已散

17岁那年的我，“爱”上了一个女孩.

不知不觉

两个人开始走地下情

知道的朋友都支持这段爱情

很遗憾

从中学毕业了后，要去新加坡留学

功课的繁忙

生活的压力

把这份“爱”逼到镜头了

21岁那年的我，爱上了一个不该爱的女孩

说是刻苦铭心

不如说我刁蛮任性

以为坚持就会有结果

而结果就是我们都欺骗了自己和彼此

23岁那年的我，爱上了一个外表看起来像无敌铁金刚

里面确实个小女孩

那时的我

没想太多关于爱或不爱

只是想保护

15岁的我

不知

爱
到底是什么

傻傻得接受了一个女孩的“爱”

那段爱散了

因为那年的我觉得远距离爱情

办不到

而我的心也还没定

17岁的我

以为

爱

只要经全力的好好去对待一个女孩

两个人开心

其他的是非题

结果现在

那女孩。。。

21岁的我

以为

爱

是要坚持

两个心不管多远

只要两个人还相爱

两年

只不过是一瞬间的事

结果现在

那女孩将会跟另一个男孩结婚

现在的我

还相信爱情吗？

曾经有想过

有时自己被耍了

对的人错的时间

错的人对的时间

错的人错的时间

但

是这样的吗？

到头来我还是相信

遇到的每个人

是有理由的

Of Simple Man

2010-10-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

Mama told me when I was young
Come sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely to what I say
And if you do this it'll help you some sunny day

Oh, take your time don't live too fast
Troubles will come and they will pass
Go find a woman you'll find love
And don't forget son there is someone up above

And be a simple kind of man
Be something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man
Oh, won't you do this for me son if you can?

Forget your lust for the rich man's gold
All that you need is in your soul
And you can do this, oh baby, if you try
All that I want for you my son is to be satisfied

And be a simple kind of man
Be something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man
Oh, won't you do this for me son if you can? Oh yes, I will

Boy, don't you worry you'll find yourself
Follow your heart and nothing else
And you can do this, oh baby, if you try
All that I want for you my son is to be satisfied

And be a simple kind of man
Be something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man
Oh, won't you do this for me son if you can?

Baby be a simple, be a simple man
Be something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man

Of That Silly Gal

2010-08-09T11:39:00.002+08:00

First off, my deepest and most sincere thanks to both of you.
You know who you are.
:)
Thanks for checking up on this blog even though it went into comatose for so long.

This post is for that silly gal.
That silly gal I knew back when I started out on my first step towards achieving my dreams in INTI.That silly gal who smiled in front of everyone else, but secretly cried behind everyone's back.

I am really happy for you.
It means a lot to know that you're better.Its hard to tell you how glad I am, but I am.
When you're back here, just let me know.
I hope I can be there to welcome you back.Don't know what else to say, but then again ... I hope I don't have to say much.

I owe you so much more than you ever know.
Thank you
:)

Of Simple Things In Life

2010-08-07T02:38:00.002+08:00

First thing first. I know I haven't update this blog for eon. Probably up to a year in fact.
Anyway, busy sounds like an excuse. Lazy is more like it.
Either way ... lets see how far I can go.

I am sitting on my couch at my rented place. 245am right now.
And somehow, the phrase "Simple Things In Life" just keep flashing into my head.
I have no idea why ... and so I thought I would just jot it down quickly here.

I think I am a simple man. Who wants simple things in my life.
Love a woman deeply. Care my family passionately. Never stop learning. Never stop growing.
Sometimes, it is the simple things in life that moves us the most.
Perhaps, there really is no need to make things so complicated. But hey, this is a mad mad world we are in. Just remember to not get sucked into it.
Focus focus focus.

And no. I am not drunk.

Of Ninja

2010-01-21T16:08:00.002+08:00

My dog.Ninja.

Of Dependence

2009-09-08T21:47:00.002+08:00

In the past, I like to think that I am a dependenable person. Especially to those who are really close to me.
I like to help them solve their problems. Or lighten their burdens.
I think I always take up their cause. Fear for them. Worry for them. Work for them.

I think being dependent on someone is a blissful feeling.
The feeling that you can always fall-back on some people when things go wrong.

I remember a "Calvin and Hobbes" strip where in that particular run, their house was broken-into when the family was out on vacation.
It was a big shock to all of them. And when night time comes, Calvin was able to snuggle onto Hobbes for comfort.
For his parents, the dad said something like this;
"Why do I have to be the grown-up here?"

I guess I can understand the feeling of wanting to be dependent on someone.
It is nice. To know that there is someone you can count on to help lighten the burden.When things go wrong.
You know that you can get a good-night sleep, because that someone will take care of things.

When the dependency wears off, does that means ... the distance has increased?
It is hard to say.

Dependency.It is a bliss to be able to depend on someone.

Of Vulnerable

2009-08-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

I think that when people are sick, they are the most vulnerable.

I am down with fever.Headache.And muscle ache.Hopefully it is nothing serious.But, with nothing to do, and nothing that I can do ... I realized how vulnerable I am as I lay on the bed.
There were moments when I felt all alone.

I can't tell my parents I am sick, because that would only get them worried.
And with most people at work, there is no one I can ... complain to.

This kind of "loneliness" ... sigh.

Of Touching Lyrics

2009-08-12T15:49:00.002+08:00

I just realized that Fish Leong has a lot of rather touching songs.The lyrics are rather meaningful, when I actually take time to sit down and listen to it.

Like this song;

我最快乐那一年　是你陪我经历一切
什么都生动又强烈　有真正在活着的感觉

我们最快乐的那一年　像浓缩了最精华的时间

And the last line...

多留恋都不能　活在从前　
决定不愁眉苦脸　不让深爱的人　挂念

Very nicely written.

Of Quitting Facebook

2009-08-07T15:52:00.004+08:00

I have just deactivated Facebook.
Reason being.I can't stand it anymore.

Newspaper write that networking through LinkedIn and Facebook can actually helps. Because you never know which person you add could help propel you to your dream career.
And people told me that they have approached CEOs or some manager through Facebook asking about employment opportunities in their company.
Apparently, the general public say social media is the way to go.

I say.Fuck all of this.

Did you know there was once a random person who tried adding me as her friend ... and when I sent a nice and polite message asking who she is ... which is to me the normal thing to do since I don't know her, don't recall bumping into her, have not an idea where/when have I met her before and I did not want to just simply add "friends"... and you know what was the reply I got?

Something along the line that says, "I know you were the INTIMA President and bla bla bla. Never thought the President would be so snobbish. Just wanted to add you as friend"

WHAT THE FUCK?!
I am being judged by a person I have never met before.

So, you know what. Fuck all of this. I am tired of adding "friends" I have not seen in the past 10 years. Or even "friends" I have never seen! Tired of being judged by people I barely know. Tired of letting acquaintances finding out how I am doing, when I don't really care whether they know I am dead or still kicking it.

I am tired of putting up false front for people.You know.You may be right in thinking that if I don't like this, I can just delete those "friends". But you know what, it is much easier to just deactive the whole damn account. And apparently, I can activate it anytime just by logging back on.So for the time being, I am going to kick back and just not care about who is getting married, who is breaking up, who is attached or whether someone is feeling the blues, the grays, the rainbows, whatever ... Let news reach me the old way - through the yum cha table.

Hey.At least I am still on MSN.

Of Walk-In Fridge and Its Follow Up

2009-07-31T12:51:00.002+08:00

Most of you have probably seen this;

And maybe some of you have seen the follow up;

I thought the second one was pretty lame actually.

Of Men Can Multi-Task

2009-07-31T12:48:00.001+08:00

I really have nothing much to say.Just watch it.

Of If I Ain't Got You

2009-07-29T19:13:00.002+08:00

Heard this song playing on the radio a few days ago.Was instantly hooked.The lyrics are really beautiful.

Some people live for the fortune

Some people live just for the fame

Some people live for the power

Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things define

What's within

And I've been there before

But that life's a bore

So full of the superficial

...

Some people search for a fountain

Promises forever young

Some people need a dozen roses

That's the only way you prove you love them

Hand me the world on a silver platter

And what good would it be

No one to share

With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Very beautifully written lyrics, no?

Expresses very simply and fully the simple things we feel when the world doesn't matter so much compared to that special someone.

At least that is what I think.

Of What A Day!

2009-07-28T20:26:00.003+08:00

I totally did not plan for the day to unfold itself this way.
After work, I brought my car for servicing ... it was about time.I arrived about 12p.m., and he told me it would probably take around 1.5 hours to be done.Fine.So I went around the area to find some food.He called me after 10 minutes or so when I found a place for lunch and told me my car has this has that ... Conclusion: Massive dent to wallet.Boo hoo.I gave him the green light to do what they want ... ate my lunch ... read a book ... went into a pet shop and ta da! 1.30p.m. arrived.

When I went to find him, we chatted a bit ... and his technician took the car for a spin to "test" things out.Came back and told me that my steering ... erm ... I think I heard bush ... but that is probably wrong ... so I am just going to say steering something ... is not very good.Won't cause any problem for now ... but probably will break something in the future.Conclusion: Double-blow to wallet.Another 1.5 hours to wait.

I walked under the super super HUGE lightbulb hanging on the sky ... a.k.a. the sun to my aunt's place since it was nearby.Nearby means 15 minutes walk actually.I didn't know I was that sadistic to myself.Fortunately, my aunt offered to drive me back when it was almost time to get my car.At 3.30p.m., when my car was finally given a clean bill of health ... my wallet turned deathly sick.

Hopped into the car, started the engine and was planning to go home for a run when a message came.

"Chung Chin, U free later?Can come and fetch me out from sch?My sch closedown because of h1n1, then i wanna go bk later ..." That was my sis.Apparently ... her school had a massive infection of h1n1 and had to be shut down ... and according to the latest news ... students who did not leave the campus by 12p.m. the next day are going to be quarantined in the campus for a week.After hearing the "latest news" - which she told me later might have just been rumors ... but it scared the crap out of her nonetheless - she instantly msg-ed me and asked me to pick her up. She was scared that she might be held up in the campus. Hahaha. Well, honestly ... I have never felt that h1n1 was seriouss until now ... when it struck so close to home.

I went to pick her up and sent her to the bus terminal at Kajang. By the time I arrived home ... and thanks to Garmin bringing me to tour Holland first ... it was almost 630.

What a day.

My initial plan was:

a. Bring car to service at 12.

b. Get back car at 1.

c. Go check out gym in nearby area and be done by 3p.m.

e. Run at 5p.m.

That easy.

Of An Atypical Wedding March

2009-07-28T19:51:00.003+08:00

I thought this is really cool.

When I was watching it ... I was strangely touched by the creativity and boldness of the couple.This is certainly going to be a huge part of their memories.

Of Photo Diarrhea for Charine's Weekend Stopover

2009-07-27T20:57:00.017+08:00

Charine visited for the weekend.When I picked her up ... she said this to me "Finally.I have someone to help me take a better picture of me."
Funny.Because just before she came, I told Shie Meng, "Finally.We have someone to help us take a better picture of us."

It was a relaxing weekend.Nothing much.After a rather tiring first day, we just bummed around on Sunday.But it was definitely a good weekend.We talked a lot.And on a variety of things.But that might be for some other posts. For now ... I am too tired to write a lot. Here starts my photo diarrhea;

Bak kut teh in the morning.

Look at how focused Shie Meng is. Must be hunting for meat.

Damn Ah Beng.I like.Can feel the murderous intent?

When shutterbugs meet.

I love this photo. I think it portrays rightly the cheekiness in the two of us.

Ice skating in the afternoon.

We love posing.

Skaters in a cage.

I hope this a "good" photo of you?

Kisses and smooch

Perfect angle

But I prefer this.

Guess what happened?

Still in pain.

Skates worn on hand not counted.

Poster boy material. And girlfriends should be supportive.Not covering their face.

There are actually a lot more.We took like 1.73GB of photos.Although that is mainly due to the file in RAW format, it is still like almost 200 photos.In a day!
Discounting those that don't make sense ... it still comes up to like 150 photos.

A lot of the photos above are hastily Photoshopped. Don't complain too much ok?

Of 0610

2009-07-27T15:53:00.002+08:00

In case you haven't heard, I had a bet with Charine and Ou Ou over the breakfast just last Saturday.
The bet? A 6-pack abs by 310110.
The stake? Undecided.

They think it is impossible for me.I respectfully disagree.As Adidas puts it "Impossible is nothing"

So I took up the bet.By 310110, I am gonna sport a shiny 6-pack abs. Hmmm ... that sounds like I'm promoting some tyres or what. No. Wait. Tyres sound very wrong. *Touch wood*

By 310110, I am gonna sport a solid 6-pack abs.

For that, I have decided to set up a separate blog that I will try to update as frequent as possible on my efforts towards it. It will serve as a testament to the work I put in as well as something to look back at.

0610:6 packs. 2010. Enough said.

Of Influence

2009-07-25T08:29:00.002+08:00

I think the people close to us influence us in a much bigger way than we ever realized.Our family ... our close friends ... and our colleagues.All of them plays a part in our formation on the idea we have about the things we do in life or just life in general.

I was examining my own belief and idea I have about a few things the other day, and I realize that my family has been a big part of what I am today.For instance, my parents have been the ultra-conservative type when it comes to financial issues.They are the kind of parents who would tough it out themself when times are bad.They won't share with their children on what is the financial condition of our family.I think this is due to the fact that they think the family's financial is the responsibility of the parents and the children should not be "burdened" by it.

And now ... I think I have embedded this "value" deeply in me.Looking at my own belief, I realized that I am very sensitive to financial issues.I find it rather uneasy to discuss my financial circumstances ... even with my own parents.

Not sure whether it is a good thing.But I think I would personally like to raise children who knows how to manage their own finance since young.So, I guess I need to change a little of myself there?*shrug*

Definitely something to think about more.

That is just one part of me.It is interesting to look deep and find out why I have the idea I have now.How I am differing from what my parents and friends have been showing me.Or adapting to their values.It gives me a clearer idea of the kind of person I want to be.

Of I Thought I Knew

2009-07-21T15:28:00.002+08:00

I have been reading the "7 Habits of Highly Effective People" for quite some time now, and if you have read it too ... you probably have read Habit 1 - Be Proactive. Every time I read it, I think to myself ... "Yeah.I agree" and I thought that I understood what the author was talking about when he said;

"It's not what happens to us, but our response to what happens to us that hurts us. Of course, things can hurt us physically or economically and can cause sorrow. But our character, our basic identity, does not have to be hurt at all."

All along ... I thought I know what he means. Until that day. When I was driving by myself that it suddenly hit me.

I recalled another conversation I had with another friend who said this to me ...
"You are still you. There is no need to be sad or angry. If there is nothing left ... then at least you still have yourself. Who you are is not going to change. Your value is not going to be diminished. You are still you."

I think it was then ... that I finally understood what both of them meant. It is so hard when I am caught up in my own anguish and anger. Yet ... if I stand apart from myself and examine it ... I am still me. I think now, I begin to get an inkling of realization. And I think now, I understood the meaning of liberation.

Of Thoughts

2009-07-15T21:12:00.003+08:00

In between all the moving, settling down, easing into work, finding a routine and working out the way of life I want to live ... thoughts have been popping up here and there. So much that I have lost some of them. Here are some ...

Relationships and family. I wonder why is it so easy for us to take for granted the people that are the most important in our life. The other day, I was driving to meet up with my parents when they came up to send my sister to school. At first, we arranged to meet at some place because of my cousin ... but on my way there, I was told to go to another place. I felt irritated. After some reflection, I wonder why and how I can be angry at my own father. Instantly, I felt more guilt than anger. Yet ... it is so easy to succumb to the anger. I wonder.

Talked to a friend about relationships. It was refreshing to hear her viewpoint. For her, loving someone means self-destruction. My initial reaction was .. "What?!".
She said, when you love someone, you are willing to go the extra miles for that someone ... getting involved in troublesome stuffs for them and all that. Doing all that things, do you expect to be repaid? In the sense that, you expect he/she to do the same for you or perhaps ... to give "something" back in return for your deeds.Most people would probably say yes. Which means ... that is a selfish kind of love. What it means by self-destruction is that ... you do all that things ... and don't expect any repayment. That ... is the kind of selfless love ... or according to her definition ... self-destructing love. When you love someone, you are suppose to do all the things for her/him with no strings attached. Nobody owes anybody something.
Thinking about it for a while ... it seems to make sense to me. No strings attached.

We expect the other party to love us back if we love him/her ... and to "repay" our deeds of love. But ... loving someone unconditionally ... doesn't that means giving them everything without ever asking for any kind of repayment?

I wonder whether that kind of selfless love truly exist. Perhaps it does in the love our parents give. But.Humans are selfish. I stand by this statement. Perhaps this would be an ideal.Not a reality. I wonder.

Being in the working world is certainly a challenge. A challenge to not fall into the trap of having work become life. Work 9 to 5. Crash on sofa. Too tired to do anything else. Sleep. Wake up. Repeat. I have always idealized a life where I can continue pursuing my passion and interest despite having to work. Stepping into the working world ... I now understand why motivation books repeat the mantra "Money is your servant. Not your master" It is certainly no easy thing when you're earning your living with your own two hands ... you have a responsibility to submit a proper product ... and it is definitely worse when you are on the edge. I am grateful for the blessings my parents have bestowed on me.

I have also been digging deep to find out about my own belief in a lot of other things. Some I think are too sensitive for me ... to put it down in words. Perhaps at a later date ...

Of Working Life and Life in General

2009-07-15T18:18:00.003+08:00

Hold on.Let me do a quick check.
Oh wow. 5 more days and it would be one month since I last posted.
=S

My apologies to peeps who check in regularly.Most of you probably know that I have been busy settling down after moving in with my cousin at his new house. This house is so damn new that the fridge and washing machine just arrived last week. No complains though. It is much nearer to my workplace. And now, I have my own space. And I need that. A lot.

Working life has been exciting so far. It is a huge challenge for me to live the lifestyle I want versus the lifestyle I have to conform to. These days, I have been going in to the office on average at 5a.m. in the morning ... occasionally earlier depending on situations. So I get off work early in the afternoon ... like 2p.m. on most days. I try not to sleep in the afternoon and fill it up with things to do. So far, I am satisfied with the way things are heading. But now and then, fatigue does take over and then I wonder sometimes whether things are really heading the way I want it to?

Sometimes I think I am a control freak. I need to plan out things and I need them to run the way I want it to. These days, I am trying to take it asy and not give myself too much stress. Life is really too short for too much upset. Live and let live.

I know there are some of you who are going to start work soon. For you guys/gals - All the best. I sincerely wish that you can find the lifestyle you want and not lose yourself in the hectic-ness of work.

Really.

Life is too short. Live it.

Of I Am Hot!

2009-06-20T22:35:00.004+08:00

Hot.As in melting hot.Not Brad-Pitt-kind-of-hot.

I know.You guys are thinking "I know".

This weather is insane!

I think it is because I am in the city and hence much more heat is generated.

If you think "Bah!" ... I would be pleased to invite you to sit one afternoon at my aunt's house and then one afternoon at my house.

At my aunt's house ... it is like a sauna room simulation without the charcoal.

At my house ... you can relaxingly sit there watch TV.

Imagine watching TV in a sauna room.

Ergh.

On a totally unrelated note to the title - Books are expensive!

SHIT! I spent the same amount of money buying two books as I did buying a coffee table from Ikea.

Damn.I seriously need to start lodging complains to the National Public Library Association (if there is one) to improve our public library or start being involved in the community and set up a public library. Wouldn't even mind to work there part-time!

And they wonder why Malaysians read so little.

Ok la. To be fair. It may only be partly due to the fact that books are expensive over here. Nonetheless ...

Of Slowing Down

2009-06-18T18:40:00.003+08:00

When you are not rushing around living ... you might be able to notice quite some stuffs.
Like for instance, I noticed that;

Selangor has the worst drivers around. My statistics tell me that 3 out of 10 are kayu. 5 drives like their Ah Pak owns the road. And hence, sadly only two sane drivers left.

Be it a Merz, Audi or Lancer - when you are traveling on LDP at 6p.m. - my Kenari is the same speed as yours!Ho ho ho

Driving on the left lane can be very relaxing. Especially when you see others zip past you and you are singing to the radio in your car to yourself.

This past week has been some what hectic for me.I guess with a new phase in life I am just excited by it and has been zipping around. Meeting friends. Eating with family. Shop for stuffs. Do this. Do that. As I told Gerardine - I need to slow it down.

And hence I did. It was refreshing actually. To take things in. And I guess here, my broken speedometer is a blessing in disguise. With my Kenari's speedometer broken, I am relegated to the left lane with an average speed of 70 - 80 km/h. Surprisingly ... rather than making me frustrated ... I found it invigorating as I drive along slowly . Listening to the jokes on the radio and laughing out loud ... humming along to a nice song ... it was nice.And when there are traffic jam - being a "left-laner" has already taught me "The Way" - The Way of Cruising Along. So yes.
I am grateful for the broken speedometer.

If you are reading this post ... you probably already know I blocked this blog.As for the reason behind it ... I guess I realize how important my privacy is right now after starting work. Not that I will start blogging about work ... but I just don't know who will stumble onto this blog of mine.

The reason I started writing a blog aeons ago was that I wanted to keep track of my own thoughts and to share my most recent news with people close to me. Today. This reason remains. I guess there will still be some way of bypassing that lock. But at least I will have a false sense of security.Heh.

Of Current Craze

2009-06-11T00:40:00.001+08:00

Mika.
Amazing vocal.Flamboyant performance.Ultra-hype crowd interaction.What more can you ask for in a concert?

Video #2 - Love Today was awesome

Of Social Media

2009-06-10T13:59:00.001+08:00

The power of Facebook, Friendsters, Twitters and such cannot be be-littled.

The power of spreading rumors and gossips.
Ah.
The pressure of social media.

Of Japanese Wedding

2009-06-09T20:10:00.002+08:00

So I heard this on a TV show that says when Japanese woman get married, they actually wear a sword together with their kimono.
Reason being?

It is a symbol that in the case the marriage ends sadly, the lady can commit suicide (hara-kiri?).

Wow.Talk about being depressed on your wedding day.

Of The Dumbest Thing Ever

2009-06-08T12:55:00.003+08:00

Exam was supposed to be on June 7.
I thought it was - and arrived - on June 6.

Enough said.

Of Cool Guys Don't Look At Explosion

2009-06-03T22:52:00.001+08:00

Found this while browsing randomly ... again.

MTV Shows

This one is funny!
Just by looking at Will Ferrell and the nerdy JJ Abrams.Hahaha
Andy Samberg looks kinda cool actually.

Of Time

2009-06-02T16:31:00.002+08:00

I was reading a haven't-been-in-touched-for-a-long-time-friend's blog.There was one posting which was about "time" that he wrote about.Basically, he was writing about how people are complaining about "not-having-enough-time" ... and why some people can go watch movie at 3p.m., while the rest are stuck in the office.

His conclusion is that ... for a lot of us, our time are controlled by other people. We are constantly giving out time to others, that we have lost control of it ... and with it ... our life.Admittedly, he is still struggling to regain that control and freedom of time.But he is hopeful that he is able to, in his own words, "watch movie at 3p.m., while my friends are still working in the office".

I think it gives me hope somewhat ... that there is a life beyond work, despite many kind advises I have received otherwise.

It is good to know there is someone out there who shares the same ideal as me.

Of Music Cheers Me Up

2009-06-02T00:38:00.002+08:00

I thought this was really cute

Creepy in a way too.Kinda reminds me of "Child's Play".

But what the heck. It is Coldplay.

Of Did You Know This?

2009-06-01T00:37:00.003+08:00

So I was browsing randomly when I stumbled upon this song - "Rhythm Divine"

Have you guys heard of it before?

Listen to the first 3 lines of the lyrics

(Not including the Spanish phrase he was whispering)

Did you hear it?

No?

Here is the lyrics

From the coast of Ipanema

To the Island of Capri

All the way to KUALA LUMPUR

Yes.Kuala Lumpur!

Ok.I sound like a jakun now.

But I was like ... "WHOA!What??"

Hahahaha ... I guess I just never expect someone writing songs for Enrique Iglesias to actually know Kuala Lumpur.

And yes.For the skeptics out there (I don't blame you), he did sang Kuala Lumpur.I double-checked by Google-ing for the lyrics.

Malaysia Boleh?

Of Stand By Me

2009-06-01T00:33:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, simplicity does it.

No I won't

Be afraid

No I won't

Be afraid

Just as long as you stand

Stand by me

Of Torn

2009-05-31T14:43:00.004+08:00

I am pretty sure most of you have already seen this video somehow.

It is my first time watching it.And it was funny!

Not the complete song.But I feel that you can really see the expression here.

Complete song.With Natalie Imbruglia!

I need some comedy injection into my life.

On a side note, this is actually an excellent song.

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I am ashamed lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

You're a little late, I'm already torn

Of Grace Kelly

2009-05-29T22:32:00.003+08:00

I could be wholesome

I could be loathsome

I guess I am a little shy

Why don't you like me?

Why don't you like me without making me try?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly

But all her looks were too sad

So I tried a little Freddie

I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown

I could be blue

I could be violet sky

I could be hurtful

I could be purple

I could be anything you like

Gotta be green

Gotta be mean

Gotta be everything more

Why don't you like me?

Of Word

2009-05-28T21:28:00.002+08:00

So what is that word you use to describe a pushy someone who tells you what to do and think she has the best idea in the whole wide world and that you are just another dumb ass so why don't you just shut up and follow her lead? And heck ... you can't even argue even though she is lowest on the totem pole because somehow ... she got your balls.

Hmmm ...
Oh.
Wait.

BITCH.

Yeah.
That's the word.

Of Coldplay

2009-05-28T13:09:00.003+08:00

As a Thank You to their fans, Coldplay is giving out free downloads of their songs!
If I am not wrong, these are live cover of their songs from their Viva la Vida tour.

If you are a fan, you would love it.

I am not sure how long this last though.

Of Whoa

2009-05-26T13:11:00.001+08:00

So I read this news and I was like ... WOW.

Some people actually have that much time?

Heh heh.

Just joking.My actual response was ... WOW.

*Amazed*

Of Friends And Being Dumb

2009-05-26T09:42:00.004+08:00

This clip is quite funny.Hahahaha.

Feel so nerdy.Goodness.

The lyrics are somewhat funny too.

"If you cross the road and a truck struck you,

I'll scrape you up and reconstruct you"

And then there are those that makes you go ... wtf

Have a good laugh people.

Of Asian Vs. American

2009-05-25T19:27:00.004+08:00

This is pure evidence that Asians and Americans just can't mix.

So.Who still think that it is such a foul word after all?

Next time I am being thrown that word ... I am going to ask ... "Wait ... are you referring to the "generic static analyzer based on abstract interpretation for the modular analysis and verification of Java classes" or you just mean ... you know ... in local terms."

Boys and girls.

You have to read it to believe it.

Insanity Streaks - Redef!ned

Of It Has Been A While

Of 全世界失眠

Of Laborious Doing

Of New Source of Vanity

Of *GASP!* I Am An Uncle :(

Of Blessings

Of Oldies

Of You Are the One

Of Wedding Dress

Of Wiring Problems

Of 20 Million and 10 Years

Of List

Of Automaton

Of I Desire Mercy, Not Sacrifice

Of What If ..

Of Lion King

Of Mika

Of Thanks

Of Solitude vs Loneliness

Of Corporate World Ain't A Total Bitch After All

Of Rocket Science with People

Of Family

Of Blank

Of 儿歌

Of Darwin

Of 听与�

Of 一个人

Of First Day of My Life

Of Words

Of Stop

Of Smell of New Shirts

Of Boston

Of A to B

Of Baby Tooth

Of A Brand New Year

Of Unpredictability

Of Consumers

Of Freestyle

Of Modern Maladies (Again)

Of Deeds

Of 02:56:06

Of Thoughtless

Of Mix Bags of Messages

Of A Lazy Sunday Afternoon

Of I Am A Cold Blooded Ass

Of A Revisit To An Old Poem

Of What?! This Is Too Cool!

Of Good Weekend Make Up for a Pissy Week

Of NINJA Generation

Of Fighting The Monster

Of Modern Maladies

Of Lost And Found

Of Snow White

Of I Love The Japanese People

Of Reality Check

Of Rebuilding

Of Mirror Mirror On The Elevator Door

Of Smiley Yellowey

Of This Is A Mad Mad World

Of Homecoming

Of Drafts And Some Other Stuffs

Of One Life

改变

Of Simple Man

Of That Silly Gal

Of Simple Things In Life

Of Ninja

Of Dependence

Of Vulnerable

Of Touching Lyrics

Of Quitting Facebook

Of Walk-In Fridge and Its Follow Up

Of Men Can Multi-Task

Of If I Ain't Got You

Of What A Day!

Of An Atypical Wedding March

Of Photo Diarrhea for Charine's Weekend Stopover

Of 0610

Of Influence

Of GASP! I Am An Uncle :(